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when stuff unravels

Jeff and I are in the middle of something that we had not anticipated. It has nothing to do with our family or our church family or us as a couple. From our perspective, it’s huge and troublesome and overwhelming. But the crazy thing is that it’s really nobody’s fault, and for that I am grateful. I tend to be a “blamer,” just like Adam and Eve in the garden of Eden. But this crazy, unexpected thing, I cannot blame anyone for. We could not possibly have seen this coming. We could not have prepared for it or even fixed it. We just had no idea. But here we are anyway having to deal with something way beyond our control, something that a few years back would have left me a panicky mess.

I have a few options when I get to these dark places that threaten to overwhelm me and make me want to “numb out,” freak out, and figure out someone to blame. But I’ve been here before. Maybe not exactly the same situation, but I’ve had similar feelings in my gut, and I’ve seen God do some amazing things in those dark times, so I’m trusting that this is another opportunity for growth. We don’t necessarily get opportunities like these every day.

I see God in the middle of this. I trust that He is here with me at all times and lean heavily into Him. This is not something I can make better; not something I can manufacture with an “It’ll be fine” attitude; it’s not something I can ignore or make go away. It’s something that has to be faced head on but can be faced with confidence, knowing that Jesus is walking with us through it and allowing Him to do His good work in us. And eventually when others go through this too, we will be able to comfort them in their struggle…been there, done that; God is good, especially in the middle of it because His mercies never cease. He is truly kind and gentle.

So pray for us. Not that the situation would get easier or go away, but that we would face it with God’s strength. I spent one night last week watching DVDs for hours curled up on the couch, bone-tired and burdened. Today is a new day, and I can face it with Jesus as my strength, and these are not just words that I throw around to make myself feel better or appear especially “religious.” With me, what you see is what you get, and if Jesus weren’t real to me, I wouldn’t be talking about Him or depending on Him as my very life. For me, life is all about relationships…the relationships I have with God, with my family, with friends, with those I come into contact with, and when my relationships are out of whack…any of them, I feel it deeply. Thankfully, God and God alone keeps me grounded. He tunes my heart to sing His grace.

And just as James says to rejoice in trials because they allow us to endure and then become more mature in God, I want to welcome this struggle, realizing that we will be able to see God work this out for His glory and our good, as well as see Him grow us up a bit more. And these days, that’s what I long for most, to be fully alive, completely depending on my Abba.

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4 Responses to “when stuff unravels”


  1. 1 Kimberly Schlosser
    February 3, 2014 at 2:09 pm

    Kim, I always am encouraged by your blog posts. Thank you for being a light that shines and points others to Jesus. All the way from Cody, Wyoming, Kimberly Schlosser

    • February 4, 2014 at 8:13 am

      I recently posted on “It is what it is,” realizing this is an adaptation/short version of the prayer: “God grant me the ability to accept the things I cannot change.” My personal reminder comes from Rom 8:28… that “everything” He allows to come my way will ULTIMATELY serve “for my good!” EVERYTHING! WOW!

      In the midst of it, that’s a necessary reminder for me! Thanks for your insights… another “reminder” none of us face challenges uniquely – many have made it through – by the same loving grace of our Daddy! 😉

      • February 6, 2014 at 11:42 am

        Yes!! We have a cloud of witnesses who have already been there, done that, and some much stranger and harder than our own circumstances. Our Abba hides us in the shadow of His wings! Can’t wait to see you in a couple of months, Uncle Kip!

    • February 6, 2014 at 11:40 am

      thanks, Kimberly. All for Him and His glory! 🙂


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